Maggi Dawn mentioned this posting from David Keen which I checked out. His experience about the difficulty of truly worshipping when he's led so much of it himself rang very true to me. I was hoping to have more hints from him on how to improve the situation ... but at least I know I'm not alone in having the symptoms. And to know ahead of time that if I ever land up going through vicar factory, it's only likely to make things worse. Better to know that now, so I could try and do something about ...